Good too see that your still around and kicking. There's nothing that say's that you can't be angry with God or yell at him. God never promised us a rose garden, it rains on the good and the bad and the sun shines on the good and the bad. So don't think that you will always have peace of mind to know that God loves you. Sometimes we have to be at our lowest to realize that God does love us. Anyway truthseeker I for one am very happy to see or should I say hear you. Take care and remember that God Loves you. And I will be praying for you.

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""Say to them, ' As I live!' declares the Lord GOD, 'I take no pleasure in the death of the wicked, but rather that the wicked turn from his way and live Turn back, turn back from your evil ways! Why then will you die, O house of Israel?'" Ezekiel 33:11 NASB

Truthseeker, may I suggest that God does need you, more than you will ever understand. The only way you can give God pleasure is to continue growing in the journey of faith toward Him.

It is needless to say God can get by without you. However love needs to be fulfilled. The only way that can be accomplished for you, is for you to choose for Him to give you the life that only He can give through your willingness, for Love cannot be forced.

"He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life." 1 John 5:12 NKJV

"You will show me the path of life;In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore."
Psalm 16:11 NKJV

""I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may be with you forever; " John 14:16 NASB
Blessings!

May I suggest, Truthseeker007, we all are as you are except many of us were delivered from the behavior before it blossomed fully in our lives, praise God.

"For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world." 1 John 2:16 KJV

Why does one's experience develop different than another's? There's probably many more than one answer but I like to think each answer can be described as falling into two mysteries.

"For the mystery of iniquity doth already work"
2 Thessalonians 2:7 KJV

"And without controversy great is the mystery of godliness" 1 Timothy 3:16 KJV

And since they are mysteries we need to give them to the God Who created light, that we might walk in the light.

"For thou hast delivered my soul from death: wilt not thou deliver my feet from falling, that I may walk before God in the light of the living?" Psalm 56:13 KJV
Blessings!

"And [people] went out to see what had occurred, and they came to Jesus and found the man from whom the demons had gone out, sitting at the feet of Jesus, clothed and in his right (sound) mind"
Luke 8:35 AMP

"For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7 KJV

"Keep on asking and it will be given you; keep on seeking and you will find; keep on knocking [reverently] and [the door] will be opened to you.
For everyone who keeps on asking receives; and he who keeps on seeking finds; and to him who keeps on knocking, [the door] will be opened." Matthew 7:7,8 AMP

"Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost." Romans 15:13 KJV

"...and now there doth remain faith, hope, love -- these three; and the greatest of these [is] love." 1 Corinthians 13:13 YLT
Blessings!

Amen!

"Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven." Matthew 18:19 KJV
Blessings!

"No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it." 1 Corinthians 10:13 NASB

"And the Spirit and the bride say, Come. And let him that heareth say, Come. And let him that is athirst come. And whosoever will, let him take the water of life freely." Revelation 22:17 KJV

" What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?" Romans 8:31 NKJV
Blessings!

"And the demons came out of the man and entered the swine; and the herd rushed down the steep bank into the lake and was drowned.
When the herdsmen saw what had happened, they ran away and reported it in the city and out in the country.
The people went out to see what had happened; and they came to Jesus, and found the man from whom the demons had gone out, sitting down at the feet of Jesus, clothed and in his right mind" Luke 8:33-36 NASB
Blessings!

In the words of a well known minister and author,

"God never knew a sin He did not hate.
God never knew a sinner He did not love.
God never knew a sin He could not forgive.
God never knew a better time than now."
Blessings!

And if God were like that you would have every reason to believe He was an evil dictator. The reason you believe that, is because one of the first lies of the prince of darkness was,

"And the serpent said unto the woman, Ye shall not surely die" Genesis 3:4 KJV

While God previously said: "But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die." Genesis 2:17 KJV

Die means no more life but the devil has said life eternal in an eternally burning fire.

The promise of eternal life was given only to those who believe in Jesus, not a desciption of those relagated to hellfire.

"...if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved." Romans 10:9 KJV

"For the living know they will die; but the dead do not know anything, nor have they any longer a reward, for their memory is forgotten." Eccl 9:5 NASB

And the vast majority of the world has believed the lie in direct contradiction to the voice of God.

Cheer up, Truthseeker. At the worst, nothing remains of the wicked, not even a memory. And leaning your whole weight upon God has eternal benefits beyond our wildest dreams.

"Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore." Psalm 16:11 KJV

And for those who trust: "Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”" Hebrews 13:5 NKJV
Blessings!