Persecuted, Fatally ill, victimised and finding it horrifically difficult to get accepted in Church where I now live.

[Neil_Armstrong]

I am stunned at the degree of hatred and incessant delirium Ive had to endure.

 

Last night was the latest attack from someone playing on the fact that we had a Christian friendship.
She was off on an angle for hours and hours and hours.... Over 4 hours in all trying to get me to damage and destroy two adventist Forums I have coded and built in PHP (phpbb).

I seem to recall hanging up on her (Yes, I'm sorry even I have toleration limits.) at something like 4.20am in the morning after starting to speak with her at about 10.pm because I put up two Christian Forums, Adventist Forums for Banbury and Oxford UK. Since doing this the degree of hatred I have endured is UNREAL I tell you. Unreal. She was shouting and as good as threatening me.

 

It comes to a difficult issue when your church are Cliquey.

Yes! Like some kind of pre-formed pact that disallow intrusion from outsiders.

I am effectively playing new kid on the block and I am not accepted by these "leaders" of the congregation at all. I am so disappointed I cannot explain.

The Forums creation (thebanburyadventist.com and theoxfordadventist.com just for proof of what I say!) got one person, my Mentor would you believe, to accuse me  of "Sinking an already sinking ship (The Banbury Adventist Church.) by widening the hole in the hull buy creating a Video that quotes the Bible saying "Angels have wings".   !!!   

So doing I am apparently attacking the Elder who scorned me on several occasions for displaying, on my own business hosted forums, Angels as having wings because, I was told, "We don't do Angels with Wings. We don't do Fantasy Creatures."  As if adventists are some kind of elite who are better than "the rest" and know best.

 

This is what drove me away from Christianity in the first place.

So now, after speaking with someone I imagine is respected at the church for hour after hour I suffered a continuous verbal pummeling from her  that I
1. Hadn't asked permission to build the forums from the heads of the adventist church
2. Hadn't spoken to the powers at the top for permission to use the word ADVENTIST (because it's their brand and apparently copy-written in some way which stunned me into laughter)
and then I was told...
3. You're not "even" a baptized adventist anyway!!!   So why the stress on conformism then?
:-0
So as her argument got angrier and angrier because I refused to take out the word adventist, refused to remove all religious associated words and basically leave an unreachable unfindable unsearchable unusable  Forum online that no one can find or see or understand its purpose.......... up on the web, I started to feel worried.

Scratching your head? Yes you ought to be. I was. And angrier and angrier she got until I thought, "Over 4 hours of this? Really? Its 4:20 am in the morning and she still isnt shutting up? I hung up.

a) Ive had two other members of the Banbury Adventist Church tell me that I should NOT build the forums because GOD will lead people to the Church. I have done wrong.
b) I was told Angels dont have wings. The Bible quite clearly states that they do and that WINGS are not an alienation of the religious scripts nor are winged creatures alien to the Bible or Gods abilities.
c) Ive been accused of being responsible for the failing Banbnury Adventist Church with only 3 attendees even though I have spent over £100 of money I could better spend on food to promote the Adventist church which has about 4 attendees with cards posters and leaflets .
d) Ive suffered an incessant degree of sarcasm and insulting "in the face" insult from a member playing a key role within an environment he is absolutely NOT in tune with and cannot possibly understand the social issues of.

f) I was told my "voice is horrible!" on the video ........ Really?
And all this from Church Members and an Elder. I am disgusted.
And on and on.

Now someone who is a member of the actual Church board (I dont know how it structures itself but in all honesty, I want no part of it) just spent over 4 hours trying to run me down (unsuccessfully) and force me to scrap-edit the two forums I have built (£4k worth of work each) which work perfectly online and are ready for a very big crowd to join in and speak together and have already attracted 200 members worldwide from over 40 countries in a couple of weeks . .

She was way out of order; furious and angry and loudly demanding I conform to her wishes but then saying I had the right to ignore what she said..... and Im sitting there thinking.... this is turning into a days work, this conversation.
I let it run because I wanted to see exactly how imbalanced this person was and in all as the conversation started at 10pm it wasn't until 4.20 am that I hung up and slept.

My irritance is from the people who, on the one hand, parade their Christianity like some kind of medal and assume they have the power of conformism over all those they encounter, and on the other hand self-portray some kind of holier-then-thou manner that, for some reason, everybody buys; Believes.

This is supposed to be my new welcome into Christianity. Now, because, I was told angrily,  Im not ear-tagged and not correctly branded OR sworn in somehow Im not a real Christian anyway.
Like I need certification?
Really?

Im starting to see a kind of pact-ish society here that have been together too long and have lost touch with the way the real world works..... and are sounding like some kind of vindictive collective monster.

What Ive endured is disgusting!
ESPECIALLY AS..... and this is the cruncher..............................
I am a Vaccine victim.

 

My lungs filled up with blood clots by 80% in November 2021. After the Astra Zenexca Vaccine.
Then after the 14 hours of CT scans and tests then I went to the Cardif Bay Hospital in Wales UK to see Doctor Packham, a heart and lung specialist, and he told me I had 4 planetary clusters (group blood clots... big ones) in EVERY one of the four nodes of my lungs and I was in a very very precarious situation that when one of these things move I will suffer an instantaneous cardiac arrest, fatally.
While this was not the news anyone wants to me they are my friends because, if the smaller ones move I could suffer a strokes series and physically die but mentally exist.

3 to 6 months to live.
I am in the 8th Month I was supposed to be dead in.

And I suffer the above heartless attacks from people I thought were respect worthy.

I am so so shocked. Who do I turn to? Or do I just endure this. And carry on.

I BUILT TWO FORUMS.
I MADE A VIDEO ABOUT ANGELS HAVING WINGS AS THE BIBLE STATES!

 

I have since been attacked and hammered and insulted and criticized derogatorily.... and now I feel isolated and singled out.

But I carry on.

I still attend the Oxford Church now which is 18 times the distance away from me than Banbury Adventist Church.
I am disappointed. Heartbroken. Despairing. Frightened of my health. Terrified of it. And find no comfort where I should be adorned with.

I am a now single man as I lost my wife last Christmas. Alone and terminally ill frightened and so solitudally alone.

I still pray to God. I still ask Jesus to walk with me to help me not be afraid.
And I dont understand why I lost my dear friends because all I have done in a video is quote the Bible and made two forums people internationally cheerfully come in and find refuge.

I am tired now.
Neil.

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[Neil_Armstrong]

AND I might add because this is amazing...   I was praying to God for money.
People say you dont do that.
Well, I said its a monetary work and I need some.
That day the phone rang.
Agency.
Got me 1 single days work ushering in cars into a car park private party. I um'd and ah'd but did it anyway. Gods will.

Turns out its a company private family day out.

While I am describing my dilemma to a colleague regarding my awful health and situation (facts not disclosed here) one of the directors was standing behind me listening.

Later he comes up to me and says I hear youre looking for work.?.

I say yes, I am. he says Come see me Monday midday!!!

I do.
I am shown around the warehouse. Shown the duties. Handed a contract of employment. Told, "If it works for you for a couple of years or a couple of months and gets you out of the hole youre in it was worth it as long as you can draw breath. "

I am speechless.
This bypasses agencies.
Doubles my income.
Gets me a home I have fought for for five months solidly.

As long as I am alive to distract myself with ordinary routine living.... I am happy. But I was blown away with this mans Compassion. 

[Stan]

Hi Friend,

One of the most painful experience is to feel rejected by a church group.

Some times you have to repeat the Lords's prayer, substituted " as I forgive who tresspass against me' and put in their name.

Your video about wings is interesting, glad you didi it.  the music at first was creepy to me.

Is that your voice or are you using AI?

Cheers

Stan

[Stan]

You did the video with clarity.

Usually on forums, it works better to have shorter statements as most will suffer eye fatigue when there are a lot of words.

this adventist forum has been around for over 20 years now, it used to be called clubadventist.com, and it may change back to that one day.

[Gustave]

Sorry to hear of your problems Neil, those are indeed significant. I'll send a prayer up on your behalf.